Hello ladies! We are so excited for you to join us as we read through “Audacious” by Beth Moore. We will be posting a blog every Friday to go over that week’s chapter. Today, I want to share my thoughts on Chapter 1: A Vision Begging for an Adverb.
I have to start off by saying, WOW! As I have been reading this book, I am finding myself highlighting almost every word of every chapter. SOOO good! There is so much I want to say, but I don’t want to spoil anything for you. Just stick with it, you won’t be disappointed!
As I was reading through the first chapter, it didn’t take me long to start highlighting. This statement stuck out to me, and I hope that it stirs something in you as well.
“A subject doesn’t have to be new. It just has to speak to the predicament you’re in right now… The timing could, instead, be about a longing you can’t seem to fill or a dullness you can’t seem to shake, or a purpose you can’t seem to find or a passion you can’t seem to keep. You don’t even need to know you need a thing for God to use a thing.”
This struck me so hard because lately I find myself in several predicaments. It feels that life got crazy about four years ago when my husband and I welcomed our first child, and hasn’t settled now that we are about to welcome our third child. So much of the last four years seems like a blur, both a good and bad blur. I felt like I lost myself somewhere in the mix and became just wife and mom. I felt like the passion that I had for ministry was slowly being stripped away as the sleepless nights and overwhelming demands of being a wife, mommy, and teacher took over. I opted out of teaching to just be a wife and mom only to feel like another piece of me was lost in the chaos. I felt a little more of my purpose slip away. I didn’t know what I needed, but I knew I needed something. Anything.
Is there a thing or a person that God has used to shake you up? To essentially awaken you?
My “thing” was a conference this summer. I didn’t realize how much of myself I had let slip away until it was staring me in the face in the form of some very tough questions that I had to answer. Questions like, “Are you in a place where you can mentor other women?” “Are you actively engaged in the scriptures so that you have something to say?”
Then it hit me. NOPE! I don’t! I had let so many other things take presidency that I forgot what the purpose was behind my passion. This dullness was not just sleeplessness, but a dullness in my spirit that I had let take root because other things took the lead. Then, this book. It woke me up even more to see how “asleep” I had truly become.
“What is your dream? What is your vision for the future?”
Beth asks some thought provoking questions that some days I don’t know how to answer. So, I go to God and have to ask what dreams and visions for the future He has for me and how do I live those out?
When (if He has) did God show you your purpose? I was in 7th grade. I was in Des Allemands, LA at an alter call for prayer during a youth service, and God just about flattened me with a vision of my future. I wasn’t sure what to do with it, but I knew then, as well I breathe today, that God had just showed me my future in ministry. I knew that day that God was not only calling me into women’s ministry, but was calling me to preach. Yes, preach to women. It has become not only my calling but my dream. It has been a passion that I have been waiting to explore, and I know that God will open the doors for that to happen. How do I know? Because he showed me. In 7th grade, I saw me as a woman preaching to crowds of women, and I have never felt more at peace in my spirit.
Beth says to,”Write down your vision. Post it on the wall. Read it every day.”
Having that ever present reminder of your dream and vision for your future will help to ignite that passion for doing the will of God every day. It will instill purpose on those days when you can’t quite figure out what your purpose is other than waking up and being mom, or wife, or employee, or caretaker. Give your dream credence.
My favorite quote from this chapter is on the last page. Beth is talking about how after many years of ministering rather than feeling burnt out or more tame, she says, “As it turn out, Jesus is bigger than I thought, better than He’d seemed, and more willing and able than I’d believed.”
This is my desire for all of us. Do you find Him to be all of the above for you, or do you need a new perspective, a new direction, or a renewed purpose? Tell us in the comments so we can all agree and pray together.
*Join us back here next Friday for a discussion of Chapter 2!